Good Morning November

From August to now, life happened, I became a year older,the kids are all getting bigger and older, and things have gone absolutely beserck for the army.
Medical care issues plague our nation, and the wonderful Dr. Oz is educating us all about how to get in better heart health and live longer happier lives.
Somewhere in there, my handicap came back, and living in pain again became second nature. I was absolutely happy with my little part time job, knowing other women of worth, doing something with my life besides lying around the house; but it's all in the past for me now. If you have ever suffered a spinal disorder you too would know what I am talking about. Anyway, I've been here before as you can tell. But since I was living such a busy life, I had no time for blogging... but I am back. And now I am also seeing many doctors about how I can find relief. The recent ban on pain killers hurt, because my doctor doesn't want to help with pain relief. And I am informed that I must take it easy, but it's a lot easier said than done.

Flowing along, righting the wrong, pulling the teeth of the arbitrary thief, this column will be my refuge.

End of August

Hi,

It's been forever since I was in here updating information on my grandchildren. Anyiah has gotten so large, and now she's crawling, has nearly 4 (four) teeth, and more attitude than a rhinoceros. My daughter has certainly earned the right of attitude with this child.
Amani is sweet as can be. Just put music on, and she's going to start swinging her baby hips and waving her right fist in the air, like she's been to the concert! Imagine that.
And Josiah still runs for the hills when he sees me coming. It's not important if I have my camera in hand or not, as soon as he sees me, he's heading for daddy, and most of the time he's falling he's trying to get away so fast.
Faith is living with me as she repeats the 3rd grade. This time around however, she's doing so much better. She says that she's the child who's raising her hand fo every question in class.
Moses is doing well, still excited about having his car in hand when I see him, and anxious to tell me all about it.
I haven't seen Noah lately, but he's the little old man. And have you found a hat for a small head like his that looks like a fadora? Because I am looking for a hat for my middle grandson to give him some spice.
All my kids are out of lockup, and actually starting to live. Working, and making a life. For better or worse, Jeff and Tessa will be married a year September 17th. We'll probably go out to eat or something, maybe the fair. That would be fun.
And as for me, I am still working part time of course. There had been some intense pains in my back, but of course, there's no heavy lifting, and I was lifting, so I got pain to remind me that I am not suppose to lift very much. My husband is happy about that. We had another wedding anniversary. "32" now. I can hardly believe that I have been looking at the same man for 32 years, but I have to say that I get a warm feeling in my heart when I look at him still. He's never let me down.

Now the most important thing...I have been working so hard that I haven't had the opportunity to update any of my web pages, hence, I haven't made any google ad money, or anything. I am now just working, and my creativity is screaming at me. I have got to do something more creative. Because that's who I am. So in the next few weeks, I hope to finally make something. SOMETHING BETTER!

It's Now Nearly August

What? I have been very busy. My son has been occupying a great deal of my life since his hospital stay, but not just that. I do have 2 (two) other kids, and several grandchildren, and a part time job. And to top all of this off, I have Osteoporosis; severly... In that I already lost one vertabrae bone and had it replaced with some of my own morrow with new titanium screws to hold it all together.

I get tired. Easily. But I will try harder to keep up with what I want to relay on my own little bloggosphere. Like, recently, when Michael Jackson died we had a very difficult time around my house. And it's funny, because we never discussed Michael Jackson unless we were listening to his music and having a good time. So, of course, we were very saddened about the King of Pop passing on. But at this point, I feel that the media needs to get out of his children's lives. They are far too much in the media, and Michael Jackson would not have wanted that. That's why he kept his kids sheltered. It's just too much:(

Let's see...another story I heard recently was about a sports figure who was Married to one person, being killed by a girlfriend, and then she took her own life.

I hear this all the time, about a man taking the lives of all the people in his family, and then taking his own life. Is that so that he won't have to answer the question, WHY? I don't really know, but I really get so upset at hearing about someone taking their life... because I have to get up each and every day and find a reason to go on; every single day. Some days are good, and some days are not so good, but the day passes just like the sun over the horizon, and guess what, after a good nights sleep I always feel better.

What else is in the news that I heard about? Oh...President Obama had a 4th of July Barbeque at the White House on the 4th... now that's really old news, but since I don't recall hearing about a barbeque on the white house lawn before, it's refreshing.

Well, I have to start getting ready for tomorrow. I got a few words that are important to me on blog, will try to get more before long.

Have a good night!:)

IT'S JUNE!!!!

Hey! It's June already, and not just June, but in a couple more weeks it's going to be the 4th of July! I am still working part time of course. But as a person who's been through what I've been through, I know that each day that I make it to work is a miracle.

My grand daughter is doing well; she had to attend summer school, so while I am still working, she's still going to school, and doing her part to learn to read. She's doing well I have to say, she coming home all the time with these little awards for reading. And that's the best.

My daughter lost her man, and now with her babies is just working to make the world she lives in a better place. My son got shot 8 times, and is now recovering. And my 3rd son just turned 25 years old! His marriage is going well I guess, and he's just doing family life. Raising 3 boys. Of all my kids, I'd say, he's the healthiest. His psyche is maintaining the healthier of lives, even though he's not working, because he can't seem to get a job. He's doing daycare. NOT GREAT!, but you know that is a great savings.

My photography has been put on the back burner due to all the circumstances with the kids lives, but I assure the grand kids are a joy to photograph. And I do have some pictures to post.

I will try not to stay away so long this next time... I just need to find the time around this life that I've built for myself.

BRINGING THE AFRO BACK

Hey You,

you think the Afro is dead, or maybe from the seventies and it should stay there?

Well, in my world, it's back and alive and well. It took me three weeks, but I finally got all those locks out of my hair. And guess what... I still have a full head of hair.

I combed out a full head of hair, but it's ok. When you don't comb your hair for over a year, you have to expect to lose some hair. I know while I was locking, I kept waiting for my locks to solidify... to look like the locks of those that I would pass in stores and restaurants. It's a long ardurous process. And they never did. They had lumps, hair loose, and basically looked messy all the time, unless I spent 3 hours retwisting. And don' get me wrong, I did it for over a year, but I started desiring neatness. I found it. Now that I wear my afro- I have neatness.

So, don't dis my hair, picture to come.

Our Son Comes Home

Yesterday was made perfect with the addition of our eldest son who came home after being out of our lives for more than a year and a half. Yes, he was in a correctional institute, but that I don't believe is too different from a lot of other people. We were none less happy to see him and share time with him; but here is where the real rubber meets the road... after the joy of the party fades, will he get involved in making his life a better one so that he'll never have to go back that way again.

We've all seen the statistics, where 75% of the people who are released are soon resigned to even more time with the corrections department. Where people who were once on drugs return to the very thing that they wanted to get away from. Well, I am praying for him (my son) and I pray that you'll pray with me if you read this. His life will change. He will become proactive in keeping his life busy and challenging, and he will not become just another statistic. I know that it's possible.

More than 10 months ago now, I quit smoking. And after more than 30 years I just put the cigarettes down. Well, just like I was delivered from smoking by a power greater than myself, lets' call Him "Jesus" my son can be delivered. I pray continually for his well being, but even more, I pray that His mind will be free to believe that he can make a better life.

While at my other son's house, I had more time to spend with my grandkids. And my newest granddaughter Anyiah. It's so great. Then of course, I had to come home, but that's part of it; they don't come home with me, and I still get to enjoy my peace and quiet and listen to the news when I need too.

Which reminds me to say, "What the Hell!" AIG handed out more bonuses on the taxpayer? Did this really occur. These men are really untouchable. And not in tune with the plight of their own employees. Of all the greedy, arrogant moves that they could do. They run a company into the ground, and then they feel that they deserve a bonus???? OH GOD! !!!::;))**&)*&)*&)*&)*&()*J;L12KJ34;LK4J; f#*k! I cannot believe this, and I am losing my words. I am so upset. We should just all be so upset we don't go to work, don't put gas in our cars, don't shop for anything... we should bring this frickin country to a stop. They'll see then.

Happy Day

Well, what do ya know? I've got time, two days in a row!

Just so happen that yesterday I spent time visiting with my daughter, and grand daughters, and I got pictures!:) So here's a picture of the most recent addition to our family, Anyiah, and her sister Amani.

She really smiled so much bigger than that, but of course, I didn't move fast enough!

Soon, I've got to get ready for work. Right now, I am trying to decide what I am going to wear. Because I never know, until I actually look in my closet. And with the hair thing not working these days, it's unknown, but hopefully it will all come together.

Working for a bank, they always strive for professional dress. But I think I would rather dress more casual... just dressy shoes and that does the job. Or dress up blouse, and that works, or adding a scarf. Either way it goes, I think Capri pants would work today, but due to a cold front coming, maybe not so smart today!

Going to get ready for work...Enjoy your day, and keep smiling!

I'm back...

Whew:) I know that it's been a long time since I came in and updated, but there's been a lot on my plate. I don't honestly know how people keep up with their busy online, lives. Not to mention the activities that happen offline.

My grand children are now just 6 beautiful children that I see on an occasional basis. My daughter has now begun living her own life, and she's keeping my girl Faith, for help and support. Having two small babies is a little work you know.

And my son, who got married, to someone with two sons already, had his son, and now the five of them come over occasionally. But see, it takes me 2 months to clean up the house after one of their visits. So, I visit them approximately once a week, but they are only coming over now on holidays!:) And I admit, I am enjoying my life with quietness. After more then 20 years of raising kids myself, and then when they left they came back, but now it seems they are gone and are making things work on their own; and I love it. My husband... him I still see everyday. It's finally just the two of us, and after more than 30 years of being married to him, he's easy. I imagine that I am too. There are no more tug of wars with the kids putting us against each other, so I have to say that right now... life is quiet and peaceful, and I love it.

I've been spending some of my time at the flower garden, and look at the beautiful orchid. I am enjoying the quiet of watching flowers bloom and photographing them. It's very interesting.

Right now I am learning to photograph in macro.

Not as easy as I thought, but fun none the less.

And my knitting... I am making a beautiful lace patterned scarf! pictures upcoming.
So, I am still working part time, and today's no exception, but I won't be so long coming in anymore.

I hope to blog every other day or so! Because everyday, I am taking pictures... so we'll see! In creating My Something Special I hope to make this place my fun place!

Happy New Year

It's the beginning of the Chinese New Year, and I am finally getting back to thinking about blogging. I have been out working for so long, and with the holidays that we just had, I found that I was actually to busy to blog. But I have my health this year, so I will not complain.

After 5 years of being unemployed, broke, and having had 3 serious surgeries, I am finally getting back to the business of living, I am so grateful that I forgot that I had the online to attend too. My something better, really is Something Better! After all these years, I have my health back. And I quit smoking too! Who knew?

It's been more than 6 months now, and I have been fortunate enough to have found myself a church home, so I don't fear going back. I am moving forward these days with dreams that I never thought possible, now looking more like a reality since President Barack Obama was sworn in.

I never thought that in my lifetime I would see what I witnessed on January 20th 2009, but I did, so now I believe that anything is possible.

What plans do I have for the year. Many. Too many to mention right now, but the main interest this year is getting some education in Photography. Yes, I am going to become a photographer. What type... I am not sure yet. I so enjoy taking photos of kids. I also love taking photos of nature and landscapes, but I also enjoy being creative and learning new tricks in photography. So, as I strive for more knowledge, I will be trying a lot of new things, and this is a great place to sound it off!

Hey, during this very cold time of the year, we are going to be stuck inside for the next couple of days, so hopefully I'll be able to come in and place some more of the beautiful pictures that I have been playing with.

Have a safe day.

I'm late, but Happy New Year

Happy New Year World,

I found myself being so busy with living life that I didn't have a chance to come in and update my blog. I have made several new commitments this year; to lose 26 pounds, to keep working on trying to become a better photographer. Those are the easy ones. Because I am convinced that as long as I keep my mind clear and singly focused, I can accomplish those goals, after all, last year I QUIT SMOKING. After more than 30 years of filling up my lungs with the harsh chemicals of nicotine, I just quit. No I cannot even say that I quit. I was delivered. Because I never hurt about it, or looked back. I simply put them down one day, said and prayer, and never desired to pick them back up. As far as I am concerned, I am already living my non-smoking dream. But this is just my 1st New Years without cigarettes, and I still find that the smell that nicotine left behind is a little disturbing, but I will live through it.

My harder goals of living life without credit cards, is going to be a little more difficult. I didn't actually just pick up a credit card one day and say, "Hey, lets' max it out!" No, I just used it on this thing, because I liked it, and then on something else because I liked it, and so on until it was maxed out, and I cannot even remember the first thing that I bought that was so nice, and I really liked it. Last year, November, I paid off major credit card debt, and now the goal is to stop living from paycheck to paycheck and just paying the bills, but rather to live each day to the fullest, and decline the unnecessary spending. And that's a challenge. But I am confident that it can be accomplished. I mean, being a clothes hog is just not that big of a deal. Just stay out of the stores. Don't watch the stupid commercials that encourage eager spending.

I also want to spend more time being me, and not the person that my mother wanted me to be, the person my kids wanted me to be, or even the person that my husband wanted me to be. Somewhere in being all those people, I lost who I really am, and I want to get back in contact with my inner person, because there was something great about me when I met my husband, and she's still in there. It's time for me to recreate myself again. But you know, I am older, smarter, and wiser, and this time, I can be complete.

And finally, I want to find my niche. I know that I am an avid knitter, and I love digital photography, and music. But something about me is special, and that's what I am looking to find and improve this year.

That's quite a lot to improve, or rather, to do this year, but I am confident that I can do it, because I never walk alone. My Savior, Jesus Christ is always with me, and He's not through with me yet!

Have a blessed day, until we meet again.